I have wrote about many things, mostly about what I know best about. Complaining, I am a certified complainer in sorts I suppose. Maybe that's all I can do, view the faults and tell it like it is. Maybe that's it, maybe I'm just a very blunt and honest person in this sea of liars and ambiguous people.
I find it incomprehensible the thought of being lied to, especially when that lie is told directly to my face. Too many times I have been misquoted or judge because of miss communication.
Here is the story:
On Friday, I asked a friend to hangout with the group in our usual (movie night) escapade. She texted me and said that she could not and that she had work on Friday, completely understandable; she said she could possibly hangout tomorrow (Saturday) and I was told from my friend that she couldn't hangout on Sunday because she was going to her friends younger brothers birthday party (he's 3 years old). Not only did she not call to hangout on Saturday, but I found out from the friend that was having the party that her baby brother's party was next Sunday. Again, I waited for a phone call that did not come. I know you are thinking, 'Alex, why didn't you just call her!?' and the answer is simple, I have called her numerous times and it is 'me' the one that is making all the arrangements. I also called her on her lie, and then I get bitched out for my propesterous claims.
My point is this:
I am trying and trying, putting 100% of my time, money and energy into this friendship and what do I get in return? Well let's just say its not friendship. In my views (which of course could be wrong, but somehow I doubt it) I am treated less than dirt. For her other (girl) friends, she can make time between work and school, but for me its too much of a hassle?
In case she does read this, which I doubt she ever will. You think I get home and think about hanging out? No, I don't! I don't go to school, but I've got a million other things on plate too! I've got an asshole boss who just so happens to also be my step-dad and we have 3 seperate jobs running at the same time, I am trying to get into the Air Force and I have to write essays and get letters or recommendation, I am dieting and trying to lose weight, I'm still trying to find friends my own age AND on TOP OF ALL THAT I am taking online classes SO BITE ME! Yet I still have time to hangout with you? Seems to me that you need to sort out your priorities.
Its fine, if you don't want me as a friend say so because I won't know otherwise. You say you do but you act otherwise. Treat others the way you wish to be treated, and maybe I wouldn't get so mad. I don't like the drama, I hate it in fact. I wish to god you would understand, but again you won't because you believe on way and I believe another.
This will be my last blogpost, if you know my e-mail you can contact me there.
