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Nothing new to detail really, mostly just trying to figure stuff out and sort through people's bullshit to get to the answer that I want. You know they say that if you don't get the answer you were looking for, you didn't ask the right question. I have no clue why I am rambling on about this, serves no purpose really, it kind of reminds me of English class. My teacher would always get on my case because I write ridiculously long sentences with out correct punctuation any where in site, it still to this day makes me laugh, because I honestly still haven't a clue if I write correctly or not.

I find girls so dearly strange indeed. I find it hard to fathom how their brain works, seriously I am befuddled and amazed at the way they conceive information and the way they communicate it to guys, or well me in a specific example.

I tell a girl that I am interested in her a while back. We start hanging out more frequently, even though she is slightly younger than me. But here is one of the many problem, she is well liked by pretty much every guy that goes down to the beach, and I don't blame her for that. What I do blame her for is inviting me down to the beach, when she has a group of flirting guys at her every whim. Yet she says she wants me to come down to the beach and that she misses me, after I didn't talk to her 'a lot' like I usually do, I just kept quiet and walked with my brother to Arby's for a chocolate milkshake (and of course his friends decided to tag along aka the pack of guys) and the whole time she's talking to me asking me what's wrong, etc I would just ignore her or just kept quiet.

I just don't know the nerve of some people sometimes. You give the big "fuck off" to me twice in the same week, I am bound to get the message, but when I finally get the message that you don't / can't hangout, don't expect me to jump up and be overjoyed when I do see you, because that is bullshit and you know it!

I am not going to compete with people who are younger than me, I am the Alpha male and I won't even compete with a pack of lowly wolves. I won't compete for you if we aren't together, there is no point to it, that's like chopping down a tree to get to the seeds to plant more trees, doesn't make sense.

Goodnight