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IT'S JOHNNY!

Sorry I couldn't resist, I watched the Shining the other day and decided that's how I would open in this blog. First and foremost I would like to apologize to all of my ONE READER, who hasn't had anything to read in the morning before work, for sometime now.

The thing is, I haven't been myself as of late. My mother and stepfather, and my brothers were getting on my case more and more, and I couldn't take it anymore. So I decided in retaliation that I would be just like them (i.e. I would try to act like them instead of being myself), so I didn't go on the computer very much and decided I'd delete my Myspace and Facebook, anyway case and point, they did not like what they saw (themselves in me). Although I must admit that I did over do it, just a smidgen, but I guess that's what they needed, a taste of their own medicine.

So I'm BACK!

I can't say I'm better than ever, I still need to lose like 8 kilos or so, which I feel bad about now because I didn't do any cardio today! =/.

I know spring has passed for the most part and summer is rolling around, but I feel left out in a way. Spring usually brings people together, and I kind of miss snuggling up with a girl. Truth be told there are girls who have galloped across my gaze, but either they are too young and naive, or they aren't interested in me. Sometimes I wonder if its me, I mean, usually everything has a common denominator and somehow I feel like I AM the denominator and I don't like it. =/ It feels so surreal I suppose, because I like, actually scratch that, I'm in love (could possibly be love at first sight, but I've known her for a long time) with a certain girl, and it really worries me not knowing which way the pendulum will swing. Time will only tell.

Today was a pretty obsolete and boring day, I went to work to do a simple task, and it took me more than an hour to complete. Sometimes the basic things are the things that kill me. GAH!

I can't remember exactly which day *thinks really hard* I'm pretty sure it was Saturday, but I swam yesterday after my chores were done. My approximation on how far I swam was: 500m or so of continuous swimming. But it was fun, usually I swim by myself or my younger brother comes with me sometimes (although he did not that day), but Blake came to swim over to the pier (he's only 6 or 7, but he's cute and he reminds me of me.. haha.. probably why I keep him around) and then Aiden (he's 7) came to the beach (and I was teaching him how to swim, as he cannot swim very well, he can now swim 3 to 4 meters without any life-jacket or anything to support him). Then came a younger girl (Jae) and her friend who also swam with us.

I don't know if you will find this funny but I kind of do. I'm 20 years old, I usually have a short-shaved beard, and here I am swimming with kids who are almost half my age. Believe me I get suspicious looks from parents all the time, but only Blake's parents really know me (as I am the only one who is allowed to watch Blake at the beach). But, the other parents just look at me like I'm going to steal their children or something hahaha.. which reminds me of another thing, Aiden, the seven-year-0ld, has been coming over and knocking on my door to find out if I could "play" or if I wanted to go over his house and play video games, and to be honest part of me really wants to, yet I don't think a twenty year old and seven year old can be friends (it doesn't look right) hahaha.. I just realized that these kind of things have happened a lot to me (me being friends with people who are younger and kids asking me to 'sleep over' hahaha..)

Jeez.. I guess at heart I'm really not that old, at least not at heart anyway!

Well I guess I'll be heading off to bed and a nice shower now! =)

Goodnight to all