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I haven't had a chance to actually sit down and type something the past few weeks, and even now I feel as though I should rush through this, even though I really want to linger and just chat away. But I can't because it is almost 2430 hours and I have yet to charge my phone.

Okay so basically to get down to the basics =/

One - I dropped a couple hints at a girl who was a tad bit younger than me (17) and she didn't really catch on to it, until like the very last hint. And right now, I'm kind of stressed because I don't know if its a good thing or a bad thing. She is friends with my little brother and his little posse (only a year ahead of him). And now I feel out of place I guess, because A.) She's younger than me, B.) My little brothers friends' friend, C.) She's at that age that when you tell someone you like them, they would tell all their friends and right now I don't need anyone to laugh at me, but I thought I saw something different in her and I hope I am right. I won't know until tomorrow. =/

Two - I have been doing very poorly at my diet, I ordered carry out the other day and I have eaten a few questionable things, and I haven't stepped on the scale in four days. I think I should give it a looksie tomorrow. It wouldn't be all that bad had I been exercising (aka swimming) when I should have been, but I am a tad bit sick right now and congested so I wouldn't be able to swim very far anyway. But then again, it wouldn't hurt either! **Surprising little fact, I looked up a calorie burned calculator and put in my workout (swimming); but anyway I swam for about 4 and half hours total last Friday and it said that I burned 7493 calories, so I think that's what I need to do three or four times a week.

Three - It is weird getting in shape and all, because I haven't really worked hard at anything in my life. Usually things come easy to me *My teachers would all tell my mom (and me) that if I would just apply myself, I could literally do anything* But I haven't found a passion to do anything, until you know I wanted to join the military ranks. And now to get into shape I chose swimming because its all I got / like doing. It reminds me of myself in karate, I got my black belt in less time than most because I work hard for things that I want. I wanted to be good at karate and so I was, now I want to be good at swimming and I think I have to become good. I don't know how any speedo's would look on me at the current moment, but I guess I could get some actual swim attire so I can get better. . .

Anyway.. I think that will be all for now, my life is teetering on the edge of my sanity. So.. haha.. I have to balance all this right now. =) Nighty-night

Until next blog. . .