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I feel like one of my friends pictures for some reason, out of all the yellow flowers there are only two red ones. It kind of reminds me of my life analogy really, the fact that there are so many yellow and only a few red, I feel like the red flowers and at this time in my life I am kind of glad I am the red flower, so different from societies (yellowness) haha.. no but seriously, for once in my life I am glad, glad that I will be leaving this place and hopefully not be coming back.

Then again I feel an empty void in the pit of my stomach, no it isn't hunger I have already taken care for that part. I feel like I need something, more specifically someone! I just wish that I could have real friends, the ones that don't bullshit around all the time. I need professional friends, well in the sense that they don't bring all their trials and tribulations to the table with them, of course I don't mind helping friends, but when it is on a constant basis of wanting everyone to feel bad for them, it is kind of a one-sided friendship. One that I will no longer take part in anymore, because I am so over this stupid high school/ college drama.

I never had a lot of what I would call "friends" but I do have a select few that are REAL with me, no matter what. That is what I need, and I commend these friends for it. The three of them (*It could be four eventually, as I am talking to this girl who is into the Kaizers more than she was then studying for her exam. Hahaha). The two brothers that have been my friends more than anyone else has are for lack of a better word: awesome! =) They don't bullshit with me at all but if they ever did need help, which is very rarely because they work through their own mess, I would be there for them 500%. Chris and Andrew. I think their parents are cool, their parents like me above all their other friends (as they say it I'm a "stand up guy") hahaha..

And well there is another friend, one who I think I have a more builders friendship with (we get out our problems and help each other build from that) we build off each other, trying to make ourselves stronger so that no one can hurt us again. I love it how my friend helps me more than anyone else can, and lives further than any other as well. Hahaha.. this friend is probably the only one who will talk 'bullshit' with magic and all things being related: Harry Potter, dragons, anime, films, etc. I guess it doesn't really matter what we talk about, we usually end up having a good conversation, whenever we get the chance to have a proper one. =) This friend, which probably already knows that I'm talking about her, is probably grinning right now. This friend is my friend Tone, who makes me laugh with her odd sayings. Probably the only girl I can say that I love her who isn't related to me. =D

I went to the beach today AGAIN! =). It was a nice day yet had it been less windy it would have been a more jovial day, at least in my opinion it would have been.

I am tired of writing so blah blah blah. =) Later gators