I can't conceive how I usually always mess things up for myself, I can't fathom if I'm doing it purposely but subconsciously or something similar to those means. I mean I don't think I'm doing it on purpose, I really feel like just taking those vows of silence for a year or so because I've been thinking about it a lot lately, somehow I always say the wrong things at the precise wrong moments.
What else is new you ask? Well I think I've come to the realization that I have or am in love with most of my friends that're girls, why or how I have no clue. Probably because I've never had any proper friends to begin with, and my communication with girls in middle school was slightly diminished from moving to a different place during middle school.
It is quite funny in a dry sort of way (which probably isn't very funny at all though) every one of my friends that are girls, that I have told that I liked them in a different way has always denied me that opportunity while still saying they are my friend. Wouldn't a true friend give you a chance? A chance that no other girl would ever dare dream to take in their lifetime.
I mean think about it logically, what would it hurt you if you took that chance with that someone who asked you out, vice versa.? I mean I took a very fateful chance, and very grave bad choice of mine to break up with them now that I think about it more logically. A girl I was infatuated with, well me and her were talking and I decided I'd ask her out on a date, because we'd be chatting for quite some time and she took it upon herself to say the most dreadful words a guy could hear: "No, I like you as a friend though. . ." well because of that door closing another door opened, A girl I knew liked me (back in high school) and we decided to go out, she was beautiful on the inside and outside, its true she could have lost a couple pounds but it never occured to me until after I told my friends and they started talking things behind my back and about my girlfriend. So I dumped her, and now, well now she has lost 50 something pounds and she looks great, and now that I try to talk to her, well let's just say she is way beyond my league.
What harm could be done if everyone, instead of everyone saying 'no' and continuing on being lonely, if they said 'yes', took a chance and maybe enjoyed themselves?
The world is full of lonely people, and yet all these lonely souls can't open their hearts or their minds to see potential. People are moldable, I AM MOLDABLE, but then again no one wants to get their hands dirty, people want prefabricated plates and coffee mugs instead of doing work, which is so typical of today's society now that I think about it. =/
Well goodnight to all, *I wonder if the vow of silence only constitutes to physically talking; i.e. Am I still allowed to blog if I take a vow of silence?
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ReplyDelete"People are moldable, I AM MOLDABLE, but then again no one wants to get their hands dirty, people want prefabricated plates and coffee mugs instead of doing work, which is so typical of today's society now that I think about it. =/"
Haha! That's the best metaphor I've read in quite a while. It's brilliant. :)
And yes, please do continue blogging. If your vow of silence is something you feel you really have to do, then.. I guess you should, but I would still encourage you not to. What will it help anyway? And... I would say it's better to wait until you find someone who actually likes you back, in the right meaning of the word. I mean, if someone decided to go out on a date with me, just to "give me a chance", so to speak, and they still didn't manage to develop feelings for me, while I on the other hand ended up falling head over heels in love with them, then... It would only hurt me more in the end, you know.