3rd Day

Ahh.. I'm so tired, tired of being single and tired of never getting to share a Valentine's Day with someone. I think the only time I ever had an actual 'valentine' was probably in 6th grade at my intermediate school in Hawaii. I was going out with a girl at the time, whom never even wanted to go out with me in the first place. I bought her a balloon and a single rose (as it was the popular thing to do) and I never got a thank you, I never even got to hold her hand. But then again, I can't complain, I don't even remember her name (which is not to excuse her from it).

Well I am sort of excited and anticipating tomorrow's evening events, going to the DC Improv to see one of my favorite comedians: Eddie Gossling. I think it will be an awesome experience and I've always wanted to meet him in person, =). But yes, I am enthralled to go there, I just can't wait to do it, and just meet new people, etc.

Well today I decided that my room has gotten far too dirty =p so I decided that I'd clean it and take care of some laundry that I've been meaning to do. I washed my sheets & blankets, and I put them in the dryer but I don't think they'll be warm enough when I go to sleep, which reminds me I think I need to clear off my bed of all my assorted comics and books.

Even though this isn't a journal or anything, I do have to let out one thing that has been on my mind for quite a while. Since I don't have any friends on at this hour to get advice from, etc. I guess I'll just have to post it here. I think I'm in love with one of my friends, there I've said it. I know that friendship and love and the mixing of the both of them are a very rare ordeal but I feel really stongly about this. But the thing is, I don't know if I can work up the nerve to tell her how I feel. She is really and truly one of my greatest friends and I don't want to fuck up anything that I already have to chase down some short-lived fantasy, you know? I guess when the time is right I can reveal it to her. I guess I can explain her a little better though. =)

She is unkempt but divinity. Cute and hopeful, mischevious and inspiring. A daydreamer and a magnificent artist in all shapes and forms. Intelligent, dorky, goofy, and most wonderful girl ever! I think that she is the perfect one for me, truly, if it came down to her and Ms. Emma Watson (the girl that I would die for) I think I'd choose her rather than Ms. Emma Watson. And that is saying a LOT if you knew me at all.

But it is what is I guess, and if & when the time is right. I'll announce it not only to her, but I'll scream it from the hilltops and from the tallest mountain. =) It is weird, I think it is a fact that guys usually go for girls who are like their mothers and/or sisters, but its weird because she is like my sister and my mom and just like me all wrapped up in one finely produced package. I hope to see her soon. That just made up for the rest of the day, I'm glad I got that off my chest, it was getting kind of heavy you know? =p